just wen i thot evrything's turning out fine,,,out of the blue he just disappeard...my sky turned gray..my life tumbled down...how cud this world be so mean??at first i thot he was something spexal...wich i think he still is.,.,but you know?...things sudenly change wen the person turns cold ...if u know wat i mean..frends told me that its just nothing..but hey..i know my self beter ryt?i know wat i am wen i fall in love...its a natural thing for teens like me...maybe i just miss him so much..and im being so paranoid!i hate myself for this..im so schezophrenic sometimes...but now i stay in one mood wich is depression...evrything around me is affected...i dont know wat to do and how,,,i really need hm now...i dont understand why so much...i shouldnt be like this...coz im being crazy...i think about him all the tym thow i shouldnt...i just dont understnd!i really need him...he somehow became the center of my world now....i MISS YOU EM.EM..:\