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its 4-0 for me...goodness! when will i learn my lessons about this stuff? i messed up my life big time!and it seems like im not taking it seriously..(im talking love life f.y.i).i already warned myself about this..and now my heart is paying for it all.when will i be smiling bout this? if only i could be there for him and embrace him..i would do it.but i cant. a lot of things are scattered on my way to be with him..and as much as i want to fight, it's tearing me down..impossibility is a big word for my situation.that's why im having a hard time figuring things out.no one can help me now except for myself..how long do i have to suffer in this pain?it's summer and i wanna have fun..but thoughts of this heartache is pulling me back to the feeling when im solving trigonometry problems! its even worse! and now im playing "when you look me in the eyes" by the jonas brothers..while i was crying about it a while ago..i calmed down easily then out of nowhere this song played on the radio.then i asked god "nang aasar ka ba talga?".i contiuously crying until i said "that's enough.you've been crying a lot." well i stopped thank god. but the feeling's still there.it will never fade.not in my heart. i know some of DODELS know what im talking about.(but not all of them.)jheez what have i done to myself?im putting pressures in my life..so much of them.not to mention the pressure that's been putted by other people..it's covering my happiness.<sighs> i wish god could just take me now and bring me back when my heart's whole again.

grabeeeeeeeeeh!d inexpect ng lhat na mngyyre un! hakot na hakot lhat ng awards!owyea! sobrang bilib nako kai ser filomeno! ser! oh yan! mkakakain kna ha?...ehehe! ang saya tlga! astig! best costume,most disciplined at best performance! all thanks to mr.filomeno talaga! all hardwork paid off! grabeh! yipeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!

oh well...lets make it official...kean's hot ryt?and so?joke.ehe.la lang.im jus making it official that im back on track..but maybe im still a bit headed..i dont know.i dont want to take the next step and get hurt again..maybe ryt now im contented on wer im at...that fan stage,extraordinary ofcourse..oh well......im still hoping though...never lose hope nga db? but im happy now that i took the first step and that is geiitng rid of the most irritating person in my life,,,i bet DODELS  know who that is haha.!well im talking to my friend alex on y.m her parents left her in the house..lol dod. haha! oh well guess thats it for now...my arms' pretty banged up..lolies!

just one thing....my enemy is a liar,..psycho freak queen of denial...no offense though...i have frends hu deny things,,,but then...this enemy is not my frend...yah coz thats why he/she is my ENEMY ryt? i dont know why that person denies it???ITS SO DAMN OBVIOUS!perhaps i mentioned any name..then you react.or else you never really learnd a thng from wat happend to kate's anonymous blog...dont try to predict things..if u know sumthing keep it to urself then...i knw ive denied things but wen sumone ask me the real deal..i tell them...espexaly wen theyre my FRIENDS i dont lie to them..if i lied about sumthing i think they already know what.as of now..im telling them the truth...i have atleast one frend hu knows the real deal... i never hide to them ESPECIALLY WEN I KNOW THY'RE GONNA BE AFFECTED.i tell them ryt away instead of having them hear it from anybody else,,,JUST BE TRUE TO YOURSELF.

you dont have to lie for your OWN good.THINK ABOUT IT.

just wen i thot evrything's turning out fine,,,out of the blue he just disappeard...my sky turned gray..my life tumbled down...how cud this world be so mean??at first i thot he was something spexal...wich i think he still is.,.,but you know?...things sudenly change wen the person turns cold ...if u know wat i mean..frends told me that its just nothing..but hey..i know my self beter ryt?i know wat i am wen i fall in love...its a natural thing for teens like me...maybe i just miss him so much..and im being so paranoid!i hate myself for this..im so schezophrenic sometimes...but now i stay in one mood wich is depression...evrything around me is affected...i dont know wat to do and how,,,i really need hm now...i dont understand why so much...i shouldnt be like this...coz im being crazy...i think about him all the tym thow i shouldnt...i just dont understnd!i really need him...he somehow became the center of my world now....i MISS YOU EM.EM..:\

DODLELS! they're composed of alex's frens and my frens...they're my bestfrens!

DANA,ALEX,KIM,ANN,KATE,QUENG...un! we ar one..

i love them a lot...thow there are tym that im not able to show it...(sori guys!) but i gotta admit,they're my bestest frens!!ever!!!

many of us started out as enemies or nemesis if u'd lyk to col it....

but hey,dont get me wrong.good way to start up a fenxip ryt??

we are sistrs at heart..but we get to fyt a lot of chalenges in lyf that cud result to our frenxip's breakout..

but the again we fought it off by just thinking positive!!

dont take thngs soo seriously...

stay cool..

chill..

steady...

dont be hassle...